Cheering Up

toady was a little better

met chance's sister for the first time!

shes 32 and pregnant with his niece or nephew!! =)

chance took me to the mall to spend my photography gift card money! 

old navy woot woot thanks michele!!

went to in and out burger

saw cabby from afar

then on to best buy for a lil blue ray batman!

diving coach Lambie called 

good to hear from him!!

i <3 the man

went home to feed lobo and have some ice cream pie with my honey

got home worked out 

made some plans for tomorrow 

get to see meme tomorrow

was able to lift my chin up a bit

lets see what tomorrow brings

one day at a time

=)

Rough Day

Rough day

all i could think about was winning so i could tell my grandma some good news

played singles

cried

played doubles

cried

meme got back from the hopital to her rest home

kicked sacramentos butt then rushed over

only to see my grandma get taken away by an ambulance

chance drove over and we waited in the emergency room

wait...wait...

only to find out we couldnt see her

she has pneumonia

Rough day

Helpless?

hhhmmmm...today
not a good day
everyone around me is noticing..
im having a lil trouble getting by
my schedual is crammed
sleep doesnt come easy
i barely get to see my best friend
the man that i love
but thats ok i dont want him to see me like this
ssssoooo much is happening in me that only i can do anything about
he doesnt need to worry
not quite sure how i feel about it yet
pretty sure i hate it
so...
speaking of mimis my meme (grandma) caughed her way into the hospital tonight
...again
just in time for her 88th birthday celebration
i knew something was up...
she cant really talk becuase of her stroke
i spend hours with her every wednesday just me and her in her rest home
weve never been so close
but when she did try to talk yesturday it was like she was choking on her words
now i kinda regret making her laugh so much
her lungs dont like laughter

hmm...what more must God throw on my plate to wake me up from this
will i crash and burn...or turn to Him and give Him all control
i know the right answer
but can i do it whole heartedly?
thats the question
i dont have to try to lie or justify or be fake with God
He knows my heart
can i make the right choice and place my total trust in Him?
im trying
easier said then done
i want a plan i hate uncertainty
You know best
i need to start believing it without a doubt
i have no control
for the only thing for certain is uncertainty

Tennis Lecture

ok so apparently i am not doing my job as a leader...

hanging out with the wrong crowd

(you know who you are you bad influences!)

um im a human being

i get lazy too

i know im freakn buff and fast and manly and all things good in this world..

(not really)

i am lazy

being number one on the team is not all its cracked out to be...

i can never loose not even on a bad day or ill loose my spot

im expected to win otherwise i shouldnt be there

i should always hit the ball harder than everyone else and never make a mistake

always give 110%

coach should never have to coach or get after me about anything!

i should be in front everytime were running on the track never lagging

i should never be bummed to go to practice always enthusiastic

and i should not ever act silly during serious practice time

theres a time to laugh and a time to play out the point

im never allowed to break down my mental game should always be positive...

just a few reasons im retiring after this year

im getting to old for this i guess im becoming less competitive or something

because this is the long lecture i got aside from everyone else

AGAIN

ok so no im not becoming less competitive i just have a lot of craziness going on in my life right now

a lot is changing and new experiences and places in my life ive never been are coming fast and hard

too much pressure?

maybe.

but yes coach i will try harder to be your lil leader of the team

even tho id rather mess around with the best of them

=]

Mimi's Cafe

was really craving it today

made holly alyssa and sylvia go with me

turns out..we all just ended up cracking up the whole time i half expected them to kick us out

we are deff a deadly combination

literally!

I almost choked on my food like 5 times...

how could a friendly conversation at a nice restaurant

turn so wrong!

I mean everything that came out of our mouths...

(there i go again stop)

was just wrong!

and it seemed like everytime the conversation took a (loud) turn for the worst...

our trusty waiter would come by 

but we all just laughed even harder...soooo immature

but its nice once in awhile

im sick of growing up!

why cant we grow down for a change

this nagging to be older with more responsibilities never leaves

and this time to act like a kid is getting shorter and shorter!

so for a few hours..

i just got to be a kid with my girls

i was pleased.

my digestive system wasnt.

so to complete a huge feast of loud laughter/dancing/singing/moaning/choking

we left our waiter Jose a message on our receipt to check out our blogs

fat chance..

but who knows...he may have liked the fortune we left him ;)

so Jose if your there comment us!!

because were cool losers ; )

promise

on a side note we kicked butt in tennis today
beat consumnes river real bad
but its cuz we just rock so yeah we pretty much havent lost to anyone yet
i love our team!!
waaaaaayyyy better then last year ok bianca!! =P

Business Cards!!

ok so funny story...

I get this email from a printing company that they are having a sale 250 business cards free sale...

great catch right!

WRONG!

turns out its only free if you order 250 blank business cards

who does that!!

they charge you up the wazzzooo for everything else!

so (not knowing this yet) i started designing...

picked out a template

uploading pictures for a collage

even added a black and white back side (wanted to save money you know so layed off the color)

ok so they charged 10 bucks for the template

5 bucks PER picture i uploaded

12 bucks for the back side

ok so im not even gonna tell you how much i spent all together!!

but i will tell you that it was more than $60 and less than $100

aaahhhh I KNOW!!

i was about to say forget it but i had already spend like 2 hours on it and i had wasted a lot of sleep over it and had a tennis match the next morning...(so being that it was like 2:00 in the morning) i spent it...

but wait theres more!

they had the AUDACITY to tell me

"for an extra $9 we will send you 1,000 more!!"

are you kidding me!

so duh of course i did it!!!

so now not only do i have 1,000 business cards that i dont need!! i spent like a million dollars on them (FML) at least they threw in some actually FREE custom post-it notes...so im pretty much never buying from that lousy lying company that will remain nameless...

but they look damn good dont they!! =]

No my dog is NOT for sale!!

After a long fun weekend of traffic school...

ok so traffic school wasnt that fun

but watching movies and playing ping pong in the rain with chance like old times was fun!

old times...

but for the most part i just stayed in bed watching holly youtube videos and looking at fresno apartments online for hours!! 

I finally found some really nice places (maybe a lil too nice) that allow dogs above 50lbs...

now i know what your thinking...huge dog super tiny apartment!!

but jordan is a trooper and my dog's hero! =]

you see..my parents are moving to a new house in visalia and dont want to take either of my dogs with them :( and they are moving in like 27 days!!

so im going to be living in my big ol house all by myself for months!! creepy i know!

and people that want to buy they house will come by and ill have to show them around!

LAME

and then if my house gets sold ill have to bunk up with my parents or my sister and not have any real place to call home...

wow this is making me sad just typing it

so really im ready and excited to move to fresno (with my dog!) 

and be on my own for a change.

so i played with my dog a lot this weekend super thankful that i dont have to give my baby away

and i never noticed how much she takes dumps...

thats going to be interesting since my dog has never been inside a house her whole life

so if anyone has any advise on teaching old dogs new tricks (house training that is)

please know that i am VERY open to suggestions!! 

-thanks loves

H.o.l.l.y.M.e.l.y.n.n.

Who is this person you may ask.

Holly Melynn.

what more can you say really.

just a college student with something always on her mind.

hollymelynn.tumblr.com.

just an average youtuber making her way to fame.

one view at a time.

youtube.com/user/hollymelynn.

does she like starbucks?

yes.

does she need any coffee?

no.

but hey her moms gonna offer you a drink so might as well have some too.

Holly Melynn.

wasnt sure about her at first.

she didnt think i liked her.

but once i made the penetration.

(metaphorically of course ;).

once the famous fortune "in bed" was shared.

well...that all just speaks for itself.

now she and alyssa abuse my kindness of my presence.

by running me to the mall in 100 degree clothing.

in -35.4 degree weather.

with ice cream in my hands to top it off.

(no pun intended).

and then further decide to lock me out of the car with nothing more than long socks to keep me warm.

Well thats just friendship i guess.

there will be plenty more van away matches where that came from.

so to Holly,

the only woman who can pull off well everything.

(the way i like it).

and fit about 7 ritz crackers with canned cheese in her mouth at once.

(talent i know).

Holly,

lets just say one day you will make someone very very happy.

(in bed).

bahahahahahahaha.

Valentine's Day

So this is the 3rd of many valentine's days with chance to come

had to give him yet another article of clothing to make it a complete day

we decided to go to three rivers again but this time have pizza with our chocolate =]

and of course take pictures in random groves and highway overpasses

even though im scared of heights...

and also go to the movies with chance's cape that read BAD-ACE VALENTINE

with colorful fuzzy balling hanging on it

ones Chan helped me pick out i might add

love that girl anyways...

changed blog to just plain blog i already have a website for my pictures now

aspire-photography.smugmug.com

so yeah..life is good